time now 0155hrs...cant get to sleep...things kept running thru my head at this very moment...just cant get her off my mind...worrying over her condition...will she get better tomorrow??? i dunno...might as well leave that to the one above to decide for her...

have i make a big mistake to say that to her????...will that cause a strain in our relationship???...Argh...cant take it anymore..just hope that i can really give myself a break on this...easiler say than done...if everything can go so smoothly...then there will be no such thing call SUFFERING...hoho

looking at the four wall surrounding me right now...pic of her seem to emerge from every direction...is she sleeping now or is she being tortured by the pain that her back give her??? i just dun like the feeling of u being a friend but u cant do anything to make ur friend feel better...haiz i m such a useless friend...if only i can find ways to cheer her up and that will at least fulfil my role as her close friend...

knowing that she finally found her happiness...as a friend i m happy for her...but the other side of me seem to have this really sour feeling brewing up...is that jealousy??? or just because of plain guilt??? guilty of not treating her good enough when she was mine or other thing..i myself also cant give MYSELF a ans...just hope that he will really cherish her... Sigh

SO now i m telling myself...to go to bed(which i know i cant)..rest and prepare for a better tomorrow for myself and others....

1:45 am
im alone; im emo;